One Week In

First of all, I just have to say how thankful I am that it appears that Hannah does NOT have RA. That lifts such a burden off of me. Now I'm just praying her blood work comes back normal so that we don't have to think about it anymore until her recheck in 6 months.

Now...about the whole no sugar thing. It's Day 9. It has been HARD. These past few days have been terribly difficult. I felt great for about two hours on Saturday, but that quickly faded away. It was replaced by extreme exhaustion, and a migraine by the end of the day. Now this migraine I'm thinking was low blood sugar, because Excedrin Migraine wouldn't touch it but once I finally got home and was able to eat, my headache almost disappeared. However, I have had a headache for three days in a row. Not constant, but I get a pretty bad one everyday. I thought that I would be past the worst of it by now, however my symptoms seemed to get even worse than before over the weekend.

I was at my parents' house Saturday, and then Sunday evening to Monday night. It was so hard not to eat sugar while I was there. First of all, they have Dr. Pepper, which I have been wanting really bad lately. Then they had all these cookies in the pantry that looked so delicious. I'm not gonna lie, I had one in my hand and I was seriously about to eat it. I had figured out a "logical" explanation of why it was perfectly okay for me to eat. You see, my general rule of thumb is if something has less than 5g sugar/serving, then it's okay, as long as I only have one serving. This excludes all sweets, I have stayed away from them completely. But these cookies only had 6g of sugar in each cookie, and I had found a cookie that had a little piece broken off. So I figured it was within my 5g limit, and I deserved it. Go ahead and laugh at me. I know it was ridiculous. Thankfully, my will power won the battle and I put the cookie back in the pantry. I am very happy to report that I did not have a single drop of sugar while I was there, no matter how difficult it was.

But, I'm going to be completely honest. I don't know how much longer I am willing to wait for the "good effects" to start before I give up. I don't want to give up, but I also don't want to feel this terrible everyday. I felt better BEFORE I gave up sugar, plus I didn't have to deny myself of cravings all.the.time.

I know this post sounds really negative. I'm sorry...but sometimes, I just have to tell it like it is. The last couple days have been hard and they've left me feeling weak. I got no sleep on Sunday night and was dealing with very grouchy children from 6 AM until 9 PM with no nap or quiet time. (My dad did take me out for a while, I think my parents could tell I was seriously about to lose my mind. So that thirty minute drive did save my sanity, and I am so thankful for that!) Starting after the doctor appointment, things were frustrating in more ways than one. Cranky kids, no sugar, sleep deprived, and unable to get a hold of Josh just makes for a rough day. Today I was really hoping the kids would sleep in since they were really behind on sleep. But they were up at 7:30 AM. Yay me.

This is such a bummer post. But I know tomorrow will be better (and who knows, maybe today will wind up better too). But the point of this blog is to be open, so here it is. My openly negative feelings...lol.